An undocumented university student view of the world

Well, it’s been over three months since I started writing this blog. I like it. Love to write. I decided that I’m also going to take a break from my own personal writing and just concentrate on blogging. Fortunately, I don’t have any more stories due for my writing class. I’ll get back at writing during the summer, when I have time and energy to devote to writing.

My views of the world have changed slightly, if they have, it has been on the personal front of my life. Life is random I guess. But I’m still a university student. I still have to do work and such, or really, procrastinate and then do work as everyone else does. And I’m still undocumented. Not that I expected that to change in the last 3 months.

My ability to deal with the frustration has been breached because of something that happened with some of the school administrators here. They have the mentality of ‘wait’. For those who personally have never waited, it might be easy to say. For those of us who actively wait, we can’t really do so anymore. Time passes too slowly for us. But the fight must continue on I suppose. Always.

It is getting harder I suppose, to hide the sadness behind the smiles. To hide the dis-functionality behind my supposed normalness. Normalness? I still do well with it I guess, playing video games and such. I have to admit, Super Smash Brothers Brawl is a great game, very fun, but I don’t play as much as I should. Haven’t played it in a couple of days actually. Sometimes things like that seem meaningless in the overall context of things. I’m getting quite tired of the school paper have things about immigration too, most of the comments online seemed to be negative, just like every other paper out there. I mean seriously people, why do all anti-immigrants usually have to have a pissing contest over who can be meaner to immigrants. Get a life people, a girlfriend or something, a Wii if you can find one. They are fun. I’m just getting quite tired of a lot of things. The pretending though, one day is going to get where I won’t be able to pretend or the fact is that, I’ll feel really uncomfortable around some of the things that could be talked about. It is getting harder by the day and it will just continue being like that. But that’s okay right, this is the life I lead and should suck it up.

My undocumented view of the world will still be the same in the years to come, I bet. I hope I’m wrong. I’ve been wrong about some predictions, like me going to college. That was never going to happen according to my predicting abilities and yet here I am. And there are other things I was wrong about. But that view, the undocumented view, can be quite depressing at times unfortunately.

On Censorship…

In my Spanish class, we have been talking about censorship and the like. So, I’ve decided that I will give my opinion on my blog. Why not right? Well, my opinion is that I believe in the total freedom of speech. Total. In order to be a true democracy, a strong one, we have to he be able to tolerate the intolerable. That means we have to tolerate the assholes who are racists and the ones who are calling for the shooting and extermination of undocumented immigrants. That’s fine. I believe in freedom of speech. Sure, go ahead I say, let them talk all they want but as soon as they take any action against a particular group, put their asses in jail.

It is not the prettiest position to put oneself in. After all, there are some really intolerable people out there. I hate them, what they say about me and granted, it is not the healthiest of environments to grow up in. After, being called scum and the like is not good for the self-esteem. It comes wit the territory, it shouldn’t have to but life is not perfect. I don’t wish to censor them though, because that would take out the fun in beating down their ignorant hurtful views.

Censorship is bad obviously; information is the lifeblood of any democracy. The media needs to be unbiased and right, unlike some networks that I could mention that are not. I guess that’s why I like 1984 so much, it is a warning against what could happen if we go down the road of fascism. If this country does take that path, I pack my bags and leave. One thing is to be undocumented and having certain lifestyle impose on you by ignorant people but another thing entirely is to just live in a police state. Thanks but no thanks.

But that’s my opinion in the matter. I guess I should think more about it. I’m just ranting. Big exciting news coming later in the week though, stay tuned…