I am a shadow

I have to apologize for my lack of real posting on current events on regards to immigration or much of anything else. I have been going through a very hard time at home. My family doesn’t make my life easy. I always see my life as a war, a war to be fought on multiple fronts, always. Right now, I’m on the homefront and have been dealing with that almost exclusively.

You know, a lot of times, when I tell my friends that I get sad at the news of the fact that they go places and I don’t, most of the time they answer that I will soon be able to do so, when I get back to school. My college town has an excellent bus system that allows me to get around easily enough. But the fact is, having said knowledge doesn’t make me any happier. Why? Because of the simple fact that they have that freedom, the freedom to do as they please, go wherever they want to go for their own enjoyment, they can do so at whatever time they please. Some people go to the mountains, some people go hiking, others go dancing, others go to foreign countries. And I sit and watch it all unfold. I don’t blame them, or resent them because of it, or at least I would like to think that I don’t. So, what do I do on my summers?

Well, my mom found out that I was hospitalized. And so, in all her wisdom, she wanted me to leave the country right away. It was actually my plan, she was just going to facilitated, my friends don’t know that fact, I just told them that it was my mom’s plan. I spoke about with a few friends, they all wanted me to stay but in the end the choice came down to me. For now, I decided to stay for a while longer. I don’t know for how long that ‘while’ will be, it is to be determined. And I also have to deal with my parents on other arenas, they divorced a couple of years ago, it was a nasty divorce and have pretty much been dealing with that for the last 8 to 9 years of my life. I still do, to this very day.

And I’ve been receiving bad news on other fronts as well, the school one and just about everything else. Things fall apart.

Anyway, that’s enough of my complaining. Life sucks right now. Let’s move on. What do I do with my free time now though, since I’m not fully blogging. I’ve been reading lots, Inside the Third Reich, The Stand, fascinating books. And I finished watching all the Dexter episodes I had left and now got hooked on Lost. And The Wire should arrive by Netflix soon. Have thought about buying the entire series of The Wire but haven’t decided yet, it would cheer me up but it is kind of expensive. Decisions. Decisions.

So, I don’t know what’s going to happen with blogging aside from the fact that I will continue to blog minimally for now, until I get back to my own state and bits of my sanity return. I apologize for the bad content, I will try my best to fix it as time moves on.

MG