Tragedies October 31, 2009
Posted by iamashadow in Uncategorized.trackback
Ah, such is my life I suppose. I will be leaving this space for a week or two. I have no inspiration to write anything whatsoever. In fact, I’m behind in school so I will be focusing all my writing efforts on that.
After going through what I have gone through, I believe I have lost faith and hope in just about everything. I have quit my mentoring program that I love, permanently. I hope that they understand my reasoning. I’m rather conflicted about it but I believe that I made the right decision, for me.
I don’t even know what else to write. I hope that things don’t get worse, and after what happened last Tuesday, I don’t see how they could get worse, unless the tragedies that have been my friend’s actions become the actions of my family. And I’m afraid of that happening, because of the simple fact that well, my sister lives with my dad and I know how that is. I’m not even speaking to most of my friends, I can’t bear to look at them, I look like shit and it is easy for me to just break down completely. I’m doing my best to act away, giving Academy Award performances so that the people who don’t know don’t suspect anything.
I will have a lot more to write in the coming weeks, just give me time to recuperate, again. I can’t believe I’m writing that, again, going through this more than once is heartbreaking. That is what happened. I’m heartbroken, in the worst possible way.
MG
You need to “shake” away all that pessimism. You are alive; have two arms and two legs and a brain. Now use all what you have and make a living. Yes, working at Burger King is a set back, but you can’t let it get to you that bad.
If you don’t help yourself…no one else is going to do it.
I’m sorry you are feeling like this right now and that so many things have hit you at once. Remember that this space is not just for others, it’s for you as well. Take your time and write when you feel like it.
Also, I know this is easier said than done, but be easier on yourself, I can sense the pressure you feel, aside from the one due to academics and scholarships, but you are not responsible for everyone and everything. You have to take care of yourself, otherwise, how will you be able to help others? Ask for help if you need it, let your friends see you and take care of you. It’s their turn.
Thanks for the support Lu.