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North Carolina likes Undocumented Students

Posted in America, Americans, Dream Act, ICE, Immigration, civil rights, college, deportation, education, ideas, illegal immigrants, illegal immigration, immigrants, inspiration, justice, law, life, news, opinion, people, school, thoughts, undocumented student, undocumented students on July 26, 2008 by iamashadow

Well, this is from the News and Observer, all of it, so all credit belongs to them and the writer of the article, Kristin Collins. I’m busy now, I have a new Xbox 360, but I couldn’t pass the opportunity to post this. Stuff in bold is added by me for emphasis.

RALEIGH - The state Attorney General’s Office says it’s legal for the N.C. Community College System to admit illegal immigrants.

That advice, given to the colleges Thursday and made public today, represents a reversal for the office of Attorney General Roy Cooper, which advised the colleges in May to bar illegal immigrants from degree programs. The colleges took that advice and issued a new policy prohibiting illegal immigrants from enrolling, even at out-of-state tuition rates. Cooper’s office said at the time that post-secondary education might qualify as a public benefit to which illegal immigrants are not entitled under federal law.

But on Monday, Cooper’s office got a letter from federal Immigration and Customs Enforcement, in response to a request for clarification of the law. The letter, from former Mecklenburg County Sheriff Jim Pendergraph, who now works for Immigration and Customs Enforcement, said that admission to colleges is not considered a public benefit under federal law.

Federal officials made the same statement to the News & Observer in May, but officials with the community colleges and the Attorney General’s Office said they wanted to wait for a formal letter.

J.B. Kelly, general counsel, advised the colleges in a letter Thursday that it is up to them to decide whether to admit illegal immigrants.

Community College System President Scott Ralls was not immediately available for comment on whether he would lift the ban on illegal immigrants.

Now, I’m pretty happy about this decision and you know what I do when I’m happy. I play video games. Not only that, but I laugh. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS. Maybe the people from NC aren’t as bad as I thought they were.

Life as a Lie

Posted in America, Americans, Immigration, anxiety, college, dehumanization, deportation, depression, fear, friends, friendship, ideas, illegal immigrants, illegal immigration, immigrants, life, opinion, people, personal, thoughts, undocumented student, undocumented students on July 24, 2008 by iamashadow

I often say that my life is a lie. Some people disagree with me. But it is, it really is. While with my friends and girlfriend, it is not as much. It is their lack of understanding about this kind of life that makes them say that. My life is not a lie as it is with most people when I’m around them. I can thank them for that much, for making my existence easier.

As one girl from the video before said, you have to lie to everyone else about it, even joke about undocumented students and condemn them, in order to fit in. In order to let anyone suspect what you are. You can’t let people even suspect that you are one of the ‘other’. I’ve done so in the past. That is when it becomes obvious that I’m living a lie.

I have to ‘act’ almost all the time. 24/7. Keep up the charade. Not just on regards on being like everyone else, saying I’m legal and such, but also on regards to keeping my feelings in check. That means that when I’m depressed, I don’t act like it. I can’t. I don’t want people to see me and know and talk to me when I’m like that. So, the acting is a full-time gig.

But I’ve failed as an actor. Not totally failed but for someone in my situation, this kinds of failures could lead me to be in great trouble. The last slip-up was with my girlfriend. Or rather, before she became my girlfriend, she suspected that I was what I am. I was too emotional when I spoke about immigration and personalized the problem too much. But how could I not be personal when this is my life, all of this. It is taking a greater toll on me, this acting and I’m not able to do as easily as I did in the past. My failure showed me that. I have to get better, I have to continue the charade as best as I can. Hopefully this summer is helping me recharge for the coming school year because it will be challenging. I will have a new roommate, one that doesn’t know about my situation. With him, I’m not undocumented, I’m not living in fear, I’m not depressed, I’m not a blogger, I’m not everything I am. Hopefully things will go well.

So, lying is a way of life with me. It can’t be helped. By being honest I could lose everything. And for those who don’t understand that, well, I just hope you never have to be in my shoes.

Our Stories

Posted in America, Americans, Immigration, college, dehumanization, deportation, discrimination, fear, illegal immigrants, illegal immigration, immigrants, law, life, school, thoughts, tragedy, undocumented student, undocumented students on July 15, 2008 by iamashadow

Do you know how it feels to be unwanted? Do you know how it feels to be a burden? To be unknown and untruthful? Do you know how it feels to be invisible? Do you know how it feels to be not understood. To live in the shadows and in fear? Being undocumented is that and so much more. Try to understand us and watch, we only want to be accepted.

In Limbo

Posted in America, Americans, Dream Act, ICE, Immigration, anxiety, civil rights, college, dehumanization, deportation, discrimination, human rights, illegal immigrants, illegal immigration, immigrants, justice, law, life, news, opinion, people, personal, politics, thoughts, undocumented student, undocumented students on July 14, 2008 by iamashadow

Wow, talk about being stuck in limbo and then some. I have the unique advantage of people not knowing my location and such, I keep a low profile. I mean, I could go out and party and such, make a disgrace of myself but I choose not to, I think it is the smarter move. Anyway, back to the point, this kid who goes by the name of Arthur Mkoyan is stuck in the limbo from hell.

He graduated with a 4.0 GPA, probably higher than most of his American-born peers, and a letter of admission to UC Davis. So, that would be good right. Well, no, he is an undocumented immigrant from Armenia. But wait you say, I thought all undocumented immigrants were stinky Mexicans. No, you are wrong, epic fail.

So, why is the kid an undocumented immigrant. His father made the choice of emigrating to the US bringing his wife and kid, Arthur, at the age of 1. So, now, after a 16 year process that didn’t give the family assylum, they are supposed to be deported. Apparently having your house burned down and shop they owned getting ransacked aren’t valid enough reasons to flee your country and seek asylum elsewhere.

Well, now, here we are 16 years later and Arthur is stuck in limbo. He wants to continue his education but that has become doubtful considering he is undocumented. So, here we have a kid who would probably do well in life, his life in the US, but can’t because of the mistakes of others. Are you going to ask him to leave to a place where he has never been? Is that fair? And I thought I had it bad. I still can’t believe things like this could happen in this country but I guess I was wrong.

Read more about Arthur and his family’s story in the following article.

Umm…if only there was a piece of legislation that would allow his DREAMs to come true. Nah, I’m sure there isn’t one, no wait–

What Drives Us?

Posted in Immigration, blog, blogging, book, college, dehumanization, deportation, discrimination, illegal immigrants, illegal immigration, immgrants, immigrants, inspiration, life, personal, thoughts, undocumented student, undocumented students on July 12, 2008 by iamashadow

I asked that question today. What drives me to have this little blog? I don’t know. I don’t know why some of us blog and speak out, while others live on with their lives. Is it fear? I’m afraid. I’m afraid everyday. Now more than in anytime before. Fear doesn’t go away, it is always there. Is it the paranoia? I almost took down this blog because of it, but I guess it wasn’t enough for me to do it.

Why? I have very little to gain and everything to lose. Always. And a lot of the comments tend to be from antis who are trying to tell me I’m wrong. They’ll never convince me so I don’t know why they try.

So, I’m still undocumented. My blogging for months now hasn’t changed that. Now though, it is time to look at the future. Law School. Graduate school. LSATs. Life is about to get harder than ever before, and it is time to live up to the expectations I and other have made.

I don’t know, I’m ranting tonight. Sorry, nothing with much substance. I’m fine. Spending time with my girlfriend which is awesome. I feel slightly guilty because I’m distracting her, she is taking summer school classes. I enjoy my time here though, time with her and on campus. I was able to help out a professor of mine in a Spanish class, it was fun. Can’t wait to get back to school though, things to do, people to see, things to make right. I hope anyone who reads this is well tonight and this entire weekend. If you have an answer to the question though, please, comment.

E3 is coming up so I’ll be posting more about video games than usual. I know this is an immigration blog so forgive me in advance. It is E3 though…

MG

Putting your money where your mouth is

Posted in Americans, Immigration, college, education, human rights, illegal immigrants, illegal immigration, immigrants, inspiration, life, news, opinion, people, personal, politics, undocumented student, undocumented students on July 9, 2008 by iamashadow

What the professors have done is wonderful and expected. No matter what the anti-immigrant people say, the education system likes us. Why? Because we are students, kids who didn’t have a choice in coming here. All the educators that I’ve met sympathise with my situation.

These professors though, they put their money where their mouths are and helped out the students themselves and stood up for what they believe are the correct ideals. Educate everyone. These type of news make me happy, because it shows that people care. Well, intrinsically I know that people care but its hard to know that sometimes when I feel surrounded by the other side in the Internet.

I think what is done in California is great and I hope others follow it. I know I don’t need it, but a lot of people are not as lucky as me in regards of getting full-ride scholarships.

Read the following articles, here and here, to know more about the Opportunity Scholarship.

Undocumented students have a degree of anxiety

Posted in Americans, Dream Act, ICE, Immigration, anxiety, civil rights, college, dehumanization, deportation, depression, discrimination, editorial, education, human rights, illegal immigrants, illegal immigration, immigrants, inspiration, justice, law, life, opinion, people, personal, politics, school, thoughts, tragedy, undocumented student, undocumented students on July 8, 2008 by iamashadow

This article is from the LA Times, I’m posting the entire thing. I embolden some letters for emphasis. My comments will be ( ) and italicized. Here is the link for the original article.

Undocumented college students endure hardships over their status, then see an uncertain future.
By Gale Holland, Los Angeles Times Staff Writer
July 8, 2008

He took 15 AP classes (HOLY GOD, that’s amazing and insane) in high school, and kicks himself for passing up two others. Now, he is graduating from UCLA, with a double major in English and Chicano Studies and a B-plus grade point average.

But for all his success, Miguel does not share the full-bodied exuberance of the graduating seniors who marched last month five abreast into Pauley Pavilion, belting out the ’60s hit “Build Me Up, Buttercup.” A native of Puebla, Mexico, he is an illegal immigrant.

Around the UCLA campus, ubiquitous kiosk signs encourage students to “Jump Into Great Jobs!” But for Miguel, any employment will be difficult. Like many undocumented students, he may elect to prolong his studies to stave off an uncertain future.

When you’re in school you have a place in society, you’re a university student,” Miguel, 23, said during an interview at a campus coffee spot on graduation day. “When you graduate, you’re just an immigrant again.( I know the feeling on that regards, it almost happened to me after high school).

Miguel and other students, who asked that their full names be withheld for fear that they or their families could face federal action, are caught between contradictory U.S. immigration policies.

A 1982 U.S. Supreme Court decision entitled illegal immigrants to public education from kindergarten through high school; 50,000 to 70,000 graduate from U.S. high schools each year (California’s share, by some estimates, is 40%), according to experts. But the students’ access to higher education has not been guaranteed by the courts and Congress.

Over the last seven years, California and nine other states have encouraged undocumented college students to pursue higher education by offering many who graduated from California high schools in-state tuition. California public universities do not ask about legal status on applications. Some private universities, including Loyola Marymount and Santa Clara, have scholarships tailored for illegal immigrants. They are not entitled to most financial aid or loans at public colleges.

Their numbers at the university level remain low. The UC system had an estimated 271 to 433 undocumented students, out of total enrollment of 214,000, in 2006-2007, the latest figure available, a spokesman said.

But attending college, and even doing splendidly, does nothing to alter these students’ illegal status. (I’ve met people who think me being at my university changes things, it doesn’t). A proposed federal law called the Dream Act would have offered a pathway to citizenship for many college students and members of the military. But supporters last year were unable to secure enough votes to prevent a filibuster of the bill.

Opponents said the students are looting limited educational resources that should go to citizens and legal residents.

“To these students, I say I hope you return to your home country right away,” said Rep. Dana Rohrabacher (R-Huntington Beach), “and I hope you repay what you have spent of other people’s money. It’s a horrible crime.”

Students have come far

Advocates argue that it’s inhumane and counterproductive to ostracize students who have come so far with so little.

“These students have been here since they were small children, and we’ve done everything to encourage them to stay in school and help them prepare for college,” said UCLA Asst. Vice Provost Alfred Herrera of the Center for Community College Partnerships. “The sad reality is most of these students are the best and the brightest.”

And if history is any guide, they aren’t leaving. Some, instead, remain in school.

Living off academic stipends, scholarships and a steady diet of ramen, these students play out an endless “Groundhog Day” script of school applications, research projects and degrees.

They mostly hang around colleges, assistantships, getting paid to do surveys. It’s not employment, it’s catch-as-catch can,” said Michael Olivas, an expert on immigrants in higher education who teaches at the University of Houston Law Center.

“I think continuing your studies is the best option for us now,” said Tam Tran, 24, who heads to Brown University this fall for a five-year doctoral program in American Civilizations.

Born in Germany to Vietnamese parents, Tran has a complex immigration history: a U.S. immigration board in 2001 found that her family faced political persecution in Vietnam for past anti-Communist activities, but ordered them deported to Germany.

Germany, however, would not take them. The nation only recognized as citizens children born on its soil to German parents.

She said she would have liked to stay at UCLA, maybe go to film school. But the public university can’t give her aid, while both Brown and Yale universities offered generous packages.

Robert Lee, professor in the Department of American Civilization at Brown, said the university is not bothered that Tran might be unable to work in the U.S. in her academic field. “Even as students, they’re producing important academic product,” Lee said. “We don’t train all students to become university professors; they might end up working for an NGO [non-governmental organization], or a film producer . . . or in government service, maybe not in the U.S.”

‘Miley Cyrus Americans’

Stephanie, 22, drops out roughly every other quarter towork at low-paying jobs like making cardboard boxes.

“The reason I don’t feel bad about it taking me so long to get through is that as long as I’m a UCLA student, I can say, ‘We’re on our way, we’re up-and-comers,” said Stephanie, over dinner recently at a Japanese restaurant.

Stephanie’s parents brought her here at age 4, after the disco craze dissolved in the Philippines, leaving her father, a lighting installer, without a job, she said. Her parents only told her she was undocumented when she tried to transfer to UCLA, she added.

“What people don’t get is we’re Miley Cyrus Americans,” said Stephanie, an aspiring writer and copy editor. “English is the only language I speak.”

A story about Stephanie in the Daily Bruin newspaper earlier this year drew scant sympathy. Stephanie “has a choice to make: become a legal resident or continue to live a life of deferring the task her parents should have taken care of years before,” a letter to the editor said.

Stephanie and Miguel said they would risk deportation if they sought legal status.

Even the most prestigious academic posting has not shielded students from immigration authorities. Dan-el Padilla Peralta, a classics scholar, Princeton salutatorian and illegal immigrant from the Dominican Republic, was able to pursue a masters at Oxford University without facing possible exclusion upon his return only through an intense legal and publicity campaign, his lawyer, Stephen Yale-Loehr said. Yale-Loehr is an immigration law professor at Cornell Law School.

As it is, Padilla was able to obtain only a temporary waiver and visa so he could travel to the U.S. during summer and vacations to work on a research project for Princeton.

“Naturally the uncertainty over my status has been a source of anxiety,” Padilla said in an e-mail from Oxford. “But I’ve tried to keep that anxiety quite separate from my academic and extracurricular pursuits. I feel enormously privileged to have studied first at Princeton and now at Oxford.

This same optimism pervaded speeches at a small graduation ceremony arranged by the UCLA chapter of IDEAS, a campus support organization for students, documented and undocumented, who receive the in-state tuition exemption.

About 10 students talked about life as an “Underground Undergrad” (the title of a book undocumented UCLA students released this spring): the two- to three-hour commutes, crashing on couches, eating only if somebody could sneak them into the dining hall. Several said they were hopeful the Dream Act will be reintroduced soon, and this time pass, opening the door to legalization.

But mainly, they expressed gratitude for their education.

“I choose not to place the burden [of my situation] on everyone,” said Matias Ramos, another graduating senior, whose grandmother flew in from Argentina for the event. “I have had the blessing of encountering a lot of people who’ve helped me.(So have I).

A lot of stereotypes that linger on, we break all of them,” said Miguel. “All of us are very assimilated and we’re very proud of it. . . . We’re driven by huge optimism.”

But as she cleared cut fruit from the refreshment table, Tran grew wistful.

“We’re always in a position where we’re oppressed and privileged at the same time,” she said. “I wonder if getting a PhD in American studies is going to prove I’m an American?”

Undocumented Students and Colleges

Posted in Immigration, civil rights, college, dehumanization, deportation, discrimination, education, fear, human rights, illegal immigrants, illegal immigration, immigrants, law, life, opinion, personal, politics, racism, thoughts, undocumented student, undocumented students on July 7, 2008 by iamashadow

Well, the relationships between undocumented students and colleges has never been an easy one. I was lucky enough to accepted and then funded at my university, even if it is a public college. But most of us are not as lucky. So, the question really is, what is so scary about us that some states want to ban us from going to college.

I don’t get it. I mean, yes, I’m undocumented, true, but it is not like I chose to be here. Also, please, don’t come with the crap that just because I turned 18 I had the choice of going back. For someone, who at the age of 18, already had 8 years of being in the US, it was no choice at all. Now, I’m about to be 20 (a point my sister keeps reminding me of…) and I still believe that my life is here. I know that concept of an undocumented being able to have a life here is hard to understand to some folks, by which I mean the folks that say that I should pack up and go. It is not that easy you know, it is not just a matter of packing up. It is not just a matter of college really, it is a matter of our lives, which are here and we want them to continue here. I wrote in a past entry, my life is here, girlfriend, friends, professors and mentors, there is nothing that appeals to me about my ‘home’ country. And my Spanish is not good enough to sustain academic work.

Anyway, my words won’t be heard by the anti folks, they’ll just say I’m whining and such. I let them believe what they want, I know that denying someone an education is wrong. See, I’m not even talking about in-state tution.

The following article is from the USA Today and it already has over 900 comments on it, which means that probably a large percentage of those comments are against people like me. And no, that is not the American public speaking, it is just the people with no lives, like me. Most of my pro-immigrant friends are out having fun and in summer school, they are after all, college students. So no, sorry, that is not a sample of the ‘ire’ of the American public. From the USA Today.

This summer, South Carolina became the first state to bar undocumented students from all public colleges and universities.

North Carolina’s community colleges in May ordered its 58 campuses to stop enrolling undocumented students after the state attorney general said admitting them may violate federal law.

“The new trend is to kick illegal aliens out of college altogether,” says William Gheen of Americans for Legal Immigration Political Action Committee, which opposes taxpayer subsidies for undocumented immigrants.

Sorry William, you already subsidized my education from K to 12. Actually, from the 5th grade to 12. Shame on the Carolinas for taking the paths they chose. Shame on them. Also, if you are reading this blog and happen to know me, please tell me, am I scary?

Stinky Mexicans Taking Over America!

Posted in Americans, Immigration, civil rights, college, comedy, dehumanization, deportation, discrimination, entertainment, heroes, humor, ideas, illegal immigrants, illegal immigration, immigrants, inspiration, laugh, opinion, people, personal, politics, race, random, undocumented student, undocumented students, videos, youtube on July 2, 2008 by iamashadow

Read the title, see the video.

Original link. Watch the other videos, I recommend it.

A Road of Heartbreak

Posted in Immigration, college, dehumanization, deportation, depression, illegal immigrants, illegal immigration, immigrants, opinion, personal, random, thoughts, tragedy, undocumented student, undocumented students on July 2, 2008 by iamashadow

The next following items are from the website DAP.

I am actually not that upset about going back even if I know nothing at all. I feel that for the first time I am doing something for myself. It wont be easy but it is something that must be done. My mother is upset because she is saying that I am leaving her but I cant live with my family anymore or I will seriously go crazy. I ran out of money and she has agreed to pay my last two semesters at the JC. I’m only finishing it because I have invested my time and money into and Its something that cant be thrown away. Of course, I would love to finish and transfer to a four year but there is just no chance for me. Momma cant do it since she is the only on there. She needs to raise my 3 American born siblings who seriously dont know the meaning of being lucky.

I of course would love to stay but I simply cant wait any longer. I am doing nothing here and will be doing nothing once I finish doing my general ed at that CC. I just need to move on with my life and try to find happiness elsewhere.

Mona Lisa seems to think along the same lines as me. Going back. That’s a question I’ve asked myself a lot of times. A question that will become more pertinent as time passes. It is something think about.

Mona Lisa is right, there is no sense in staying and waiting. There is no sense in staying here, being miserable half the time. Being jealous of what others have.

I’m lucky because I’m at a 4 university. But it is really depressing, knowing how alone I can feel. I took a trip on Monday that showed me how depressing it could all be.

I saw lots of sights, lots of things that were awe inspiring for me. But for most, those things wouldn’t have been. They couldn’t see it through my eyes. I’ve seen that I need to get out more.

An undocumented life is one of constant heartbreak. One of defeats that tend to be devastating. I feel that I’m making a difference for people like me, but it is also taking a huge toll on myself. There is no joy of life, no sense of enjoyment. No sense in being young. There is on sense of freedom and fun. I know for instance that this July 4, I won’t go out to see the fireworks. I won’t go out anywhere. I’ll stay home, indoors, hiding because I know I can’t drive and the police are out there. Living with this sense of fear is detrimental and well, it destroys even the strongest of us. I’m a holdout for now, holding onto what little blind hope in things changing.

I feel like a foreigner in the place I consider home. I’m considered an undesirable, an other and that just feels wrong. People tend to classify my life as a sob story and it is something not to be paid attention to. I don’t care. I don’t know for how long I can be a holdout though, this life is getting tired. I’m tired of the heartbreak and the fights, the defeats. I’ve come to question whether this type of life is worth living.

Education and Colleges

Posted in Immigration, college, education, illegal immigration, immigrants, justice, law, opinion, personal, school, thoughts, undocumented student, undocumented students on July 1, 2008 by iamashadow

I would just like to say thank-you to the schools that have answered the call on regards to immigration and have deemed it fit to accept people like me. Thank-you for standing up for people who have no one to stand up for them. I wish my school could do more but alas, it can’t.

As for those schools who say, oh, we feel that it is a great injustice that kids are getting put in limbo but we can’t do anything about it because we are afraid of what could happen to our money. I say this to you, get some f*****g b***s and do something. Instead of standing in the sidelines, do what you think its right. I understand it coming from public universities and us, it is a sticky issue but if you are private, I feel sorry and angry at you.

Virginia and Discrimination

Posted in Americans, Immigration, civil rights, college, courts, dehumanization, discrimination, education, human rights, illegal immigrants, illegal immigration, immigrants, justice, law, life, news, opinion, people, politics, school, thoughts, undocumented student, undocumented students on June 29, 2008 by iamashadow

I’ll just post the entire article. This is ridiculous.

With college acceptances and deposits already mailed, this is an exciting time of year for most high school graduates. But not everyone can join the celebration. Some graduating students are unable to attend college because they have been denied in-state tuition. Why are some U.S.-born Virginia residents being denied access to college?

It’s not because of their immigration status, but because of their parents’.

One of these citizens caught up in this problem is Jamilla Penarete. Two years ago, as a senior in high school, Jamilla was accepted at George Mason University. But after registering for classes, she found out that despite the fact that she was born and raised in Virginia, she was being charged out-of- state tuition rates, three times the amount she expected to pay as a Virginia resident. Jamilla was told that because she applied as a dependent student, as most just-out-of-high-school students do, her parents’ undocumented immigration status counted against her. As a U.S. citizen, Jamilla can vote, join the Army and be called for jury duty. She pays federal and state taxes. But in her home state of Virginia, she was considered ineligible for in-state tuition.

This outcome is the result of two ill-applied legal provisions.

• First, Virginia law creates a presumption that any college student under 24 years old is their parents’ dependent. As such, it is the parents’ eligibility to establish domicile in Virginia that counts for in-state tuition purposes, not the student’s.

• Second, even though Virginia law does not say that undocumented immigrants are ineligible to establish domicile, the Virginia attorney general’s office has interpreted the law in this manner for many years.

These two factors have created a legal problem that directly affects American students, with devastating consequences.

Jamilla tried to cover tuition costs but eventually found it was too much to bear and had to stop attending school after the first year. She had to take two jobs to pay the debt she incurred during that one year, and put off returning until she can afford it. She recently filed a new application for in-state tuition with George Mason University, seeking to resume her college education this fall; the application was denied at the initial review level. Jamilla appealed, and was just recently informed by George Mason that she is being reclassified as an in-state student. She plans on attending this fall.

Jamilla’s story is not an isolated case. Another Virginia- born student was offered admission to the University of Virginia this year, with out-of-state tuition. Because this student could not afford the higher tuition rates, he thought he had no choice but to attend a community college. Fortunately for him, a memo from the Virginia attorney general’s office on this issue was released in March. This memo prompted UVa. to review his situation and grant him in-state tuition. The memo reminded colleges that under state law, it is possible for a dependent student, in extraordinary circumstances, to have a different domicile than his parents’.

The situation of these American students who have lived most of their lives in Virginia is one of those extraordinary circumstances.

What can be done to correct this injustice? The Virginia General Assembly must clarify the law to make sure that no U.S. citizen in Virginia is denied in-state tuition because of his parents’ immigration status.

Another possible solution is in the hands of the Virginia attorney general’s office. The situation started because the office has interpreted state law to justify denying in-state tuition to undocumented students. He could easily fix this problem by changing the reasoning for denying in-state tuition to undocumented students, so that U.S.-born students’ eligibility for in-state tuition would no longer be linked to their parents’ immigration status.

The original article is here.

Fears of an undocumented immigrant

Posted in Immigration, college, dehumanization, deportation, depression, fear, friends, friendship, ideas, illegal immigrants, illegal immigration, immigrants, life, opinion, people, personal, school, summer, thoughts, undocumented student, undocumented students on June 25, 2008 by iamashadow

Some time ago, my girlfriend and I started to list my fears. She wants me to go swimming (pool or beach) and skating (ice or normal) and I’m very adamant to do so. More like terrified really. On regards to swimming, I don’t know how to swim and I’m afraid of drowning and as for skating, when I was in the sixth grade, my class took a trip to an skating rink and I feel on my ass so many times I still feel the pain.

Of course, those are not my only my fears. Some of my other fears include that of clowns, specially the one from the McDonald’s commercials. This is what happens when you watch the movie It when you are too young. Snakes are another fear of mine, but I think that’s pretty common.

My biggest public fear is the one of heights. I still remember to this day the way I felt when I feel down the damn fence when I was crossing. I felt totally helpless, out of control, just floating. All of that was followed by a whole a lot of pain. To this day, I can barely stand heights so I always try to keep my feet on the ground. Not that I can fly or get off the ground, that would be bad.

Other fears include that of ICE and deportation. This fear makes me squirm whenever a cops is near my house or dorm. I don’t drive and would be very terrified of doing so.

I have another fear. A fear I’ve had ever since I started being friends with American people, people who don’t know what I go through. Am I good enough to be their friend? I’ve always felt like an outsider. Always. To this day, I still feel like that. Feel very much alone. I’m afraid that the friendships that I value very much will be forgotten once my time is over. My time will soon be over soon, May 2010 if my predictions are correct. Will I be forgotten. I won’t forget anyone, I never do, to this day I still remember my friends from Mexico from when I was 10. I’m afraid that I’m not making a positive difference in my friends’ lives, and feel like a burden. I don’t know if I am. Maybe its all in my head.

But my biggest fear now though, it comes in nightmares. It is a terrifying thing to have it happened, and now it can happen to me. I’m afraid, and it will be my fault to some extent. A vision that keeps repeating over and over again, a vision that I will not share here or with anyone. A vision of heartbreak.

But that vision will be overtaken by something far more worse, uncertainty. Uncertainty because that is what my life is about. My days are numbered. But before then, I have some things I have to do, some things that I started working on already. If my end is to come, I’ll have it come on my own terms for as much as I can. But for now, I’ll continue living as far as I can and as well as I can. It’s about the only thing I can do now.

State of Mind

Posted in Gamecube, Nintendo, PS2, blog, blogging, book, books, college, life, personal, summer, thoughts, undocumented student, video games on June 23, 2008 by iamashadow

So, how am I doing personally. Well, on the video gaming front, I have been addicted to Guitar Hero 3 but no more. I have over 100 video games and I have to play them some time. I played Guitar Hero 3 for almost an entire month straight. So, I’ve moved on to Metal Gear Solid: The Twin Snakes and Viewtiful Joe for the Gamecube and will finish Killzone and Bully for the PS2 sometime this month.

On the reading front, I’ve been concentrating my Stephen King books. I’ve read Apt Pupil which is one of the most disgusting, creepy, psychological wrong stories to have ever been written. So, I suggest people to read it of course. I’ve been reading his short stories for the most part.

As for movies that I’ve seen, The Incredible Hulk was the last movie I saw in theaters. It was alright and really liked the cameo at the end. I also Iron Man, twice too, it was that good. If you haven’t seen it, go now! Narnia disappointed me, it became Lord of the Rings at the end. I’ve also saw rented movies from iTunes, it is great.

As for myself, I’m bored to the point of tears. I have nothing to do here. No friends I can visit and hang out with. I can’t wait for August to arrive. I’m a bit less stressed though, which is always good and I can sleep better, even though I sleep on the floor. My father was never as good as my mom with money and a result of that is that he only rents a room with one bed, which is where my sister sleeps. At least with my mom, I always had my own room, which I was thankful for. So, in short, I’m lonely and hate it. Always hated the summer for that reason.

Blogging is fun though, and I’ll be doing it everyday from now on. Well, that’s all from me for now. I’ll put up a real update soon.

Why Suicide?

Posted in Immigration, college, dehumanization, depression, fear, human rights, illegal immigrants, illegal immigration, life, news, opinion, personal, politics, school, suicide, thoughts, undocumented student, undocumented students on June 22, 2008 by iamashadow

Why is the suicide worst among Hispanics. Well, the following study attempts to answer that but I will go into more detail. Well, I can easily answer that as someone who has almost committed suicide and now recuperating with medication. Life isn’t easy for an undocumented student. Well, I can’t speak for the entire Hispanic population because I’m different but I can speak with some authority about undocumented students because I am one.

Why was suicide the answer. Believe me when I say that being one of three undocumented students at a school that houses almost 18,000 undergraduate students, the pressure is to the maximum to succeed and to basically not fuck it up for those who might following. In my case, I knew that if I did badly, it would like badly for all undocumented students trying to follow on my footsteps because the administration would just say that because I failed, all would fail. There is no such thing as failure in my life. Then there is the issue of trust and privacy. How can I live in a place where everyone is different to me in the most fundamental ways like freedom to drive, to travel, to live in peace, to not have nightmares and not be stressed 24/7. Believe me, I am stressed 24/7, my balding head (I’m 19) is proof to that. Who could I trust? Who could I tell my secret to? Living as an undocumented student is like living a lie almost, because you have to pretend to be like everyone else, certainly act like it, when in reality you are not.

How can one not feel sad and hopeless when you see in the news and the Internet that you are being called scum, among other things, for the simple fact of being something that you didn’t even choose to be. It affects the psyche and self-esteem. Hopefully though, as things get worse, they will eventually get better. Things have gotten better for me, because I found great friends and people I can trust. And my grades have gone up which makes my life easier.